Steroids make you hungry! Just ask CJ. All he does is eat and eat and eat. They told me this would happen but I did not realize just how much he could eat. It is strange and refreshing to watch him eat so much because for the last two or three months he has struggled so much with eating because of his stomach always being upset. He still looks really good (like himself) just a little pale. We took him outside in the front yard a little to get some fresh air since it was overcast and not too hot out. He took his sling shot with him and shot some rocks into different targets. It was nice to see him do something he likes to do and would typically do.
He surprised the whole family yesterday. He asked us all to sit down because he had something for us. He pulled out a bag I did not recognize and said he wanted to give a gift to each of us because he has been the one receiving all the cards and gifts. He said he wanted to do it to say thank you for all we have done to take care of him. He also got one for Melinda and grandma who took care of the house and kids while we were in the hospital. Of course he had an accomplice in this since he has not been out of our sight or had time to go shopping. He asked my mom get the gifts and wrap them for him. She sneaked him the bag. This is so like CJ. He loves to give to others. He definitely finds joy in the giving more than the receiving. I find it amazing that he can focus on others even while he is going through so much himself.
He has spent the last two days in the house writing thank you letters to his friends and family. And I mean beautiful letters, not thank you notes or cards...letters. He will sit at the desk for hours writing to others. He writes with an eloquence I did not even know he was capable of and I am his teacher. I am more honored to be this boys mother than I ever have been. I don't know why God afforded us this privilege. I don't deserve it.
CJ has appointments this week Monday, Wednesday and Friday at the pediatric ambulatory outpatient unit for various chemotherapy. Please pray that his blood counts stay up. We are asking God to destroy the cancer cells while protecting his healthy cells. Please God let it be.
We are also asking for continued prayer for wisdom for us as his parents. We are struggling with how much to read, research, and consider. We have stayed off the Internet thus far knowing our hearts are just not ready. Some emails I have received have opened floodgates of emotions I was not prepared for so I have had to wait. Yet we know at some point we need to jump into this with both feet and do the research necessary to stay on top of his treatment and become part of this new community of people we now find ourselves in. I don't think the reality of it all has set in yet. I heard myself tell someone recently that CJ has cancer and the words didn't form properly on my tongue. It sounded so foreign to say that I couldn't even recognize the sound of my own voice as I said it. Chris doesn't say it at all and doesn't like to hear me say it. I think God is still tending to our hearts, but a part of me feels like precious time is being lost that I should be reading more or learning more. We just can't, yet.
We humbly ask you to persevere with us in prayer. We are grateful for each and every one of you that has stood by us these past two weeks. We rest in our saviors arms first and foremost and then we rest on the abundance of your prayers lifting us up.
Chris and Dawn George