Friday, December 19, 2008

A Heart Full of Faith


I apologize for not getting an update out sooner. It requires uninterrupted time that is a precious commodity around here. Thank you for all who have asked for an update.

CJ had his appointment yesterday and his counts were in a safe enough range for him to continue with the increased dose of Methotrexate. This phase of his treatment calls for him to receive a gradually increased dose of this very strong medicine every ten days for 57 days. This will be dependent on his blood counts and side effects. As the doses increase, he will be more susceptible to experience side effects so we ask for continued prayer in that regard. The effect he experienced most the first round was nausea and vomiting. We were able to get that under control and are better prepared for it after this round. It seems car rides increase the nausea and overpowering smells of food. We took him to a small family restaurant for the first time last week and as soon as the food hit the table he threw up. So we packed up and left and realized it was too soon and probably a bad judgment call on our part. The side effect we are most trying to prevent are painful mouth sores common at this stage. Please plead with us for protection against this, especially with Christmas right around the corner!

A couple weeks ago, we attended a Christmas party for cancer patients and their families. This party is called 'Love Jen' and is hosted annually in memory of Jenn Masi who died of cancer at age 14 about 20 years ago. CJ was very affected by this party. Although he had a great time, he was always aware that the party had Jen's name and that Jen was no longer here. He asked a lot of questions about her. He thought a lot about her and her family and what it must have been like for them. Then, when we were at his appointment yesterday, Mr. Masi, Jen's dad, came in to meet us and say hello. He had heard how much CJ loved the party and what it meant to our family to be able to go together. He spoke with us for a little while and gave us a beautiful glass heart that says Love Jen on it. It was nice to meet him and be able to say thank you. All throughout the day CJ would ask to see the heart and hold it. As he worked the heart in his hands I could see that he was also working the idea of death in his mind. He would stare at the heart and say, "It's really sad isn't it?" Eventually, he started to ask questions about death. What do I think it is like, do I think it hurts, does the person know they are dying, and so on and so forth. We were able to talk through many of these questions both factually and spiritually and he seemed to be content with the answers. He decided that my best friend's husband who is a hospice chaplain has the hardest and saddest job of all. He also decided that Jen's death was sad but that her memory was sweet. He was impressed that her life continues to bless others even decades beyond death. What a victory that is! Last night, as we were tucking him in, he brought up the subject of death again and seemed to quietly ponder the idea. It reminded me of a conversation he had with me one morning on the way to the hospital about a month ago. He suddenly said, "Mom, would you want to die a regular death or die for a cause?" It caught me off guard and I thought about it for a moment. I guess most of my life and most people I know have said, "I want to die peacefully in my sleep at a ripe old age." But the more I thought about it and the more I grow in my faith the more that seems less appealing. So I said to him, "I would rather die for a cause if it would bring glory to God and draw people close to Him, what about you?" He said, "I would rather die for a cause." We continued to drive and that was the end of the conversation and the subject of death, until yesterday. As we enter into the season of celebrating the birth of our Savior, I pray that his little heart and mind would not be burdened with the idea of death, but that he would have a heart full of faith. I pray that he would rejoice in the fact that the only death we needed to fear, Jesus already accomplished on the cross in our place. And one day: "...the saying that is written will come true, 'Death has been swallowed up in victory'." As it is written, "Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?" 1 Cor 15:55

We also attended church this past Sunday as a family for the first time since this all began. Even though CJ was not feeling 100%, his counts were borderline, and he was nauseous, we decided to go based on faith and trust God with the details. We had the strong desire to be there together as a family and see everyone face to face. It was so great to be with our sliver of the body of Christ and to worship with all of you corporately. There is something irreplaceable about God's people coming together to worship and praise Him. It had been way too long! But, in all honesty, there were some downfalls from being away. Our little one, Corey, who is 1 and 1/2 completely forgot how to 'go to church' and how to use his 'quiet voice'. He can not seem to understand why we go from 30 minutes of clapping and singing and praising to complete silence. Then, during the teaching, he found a camera in my purse and decided Pastor Pino must be up there performing on stage and he started yelling "geese, geese" over and over which of course stands for 'cheese'. Needless to say, we are a little rusty in that area of training due to our time away. In a moment of frustration and embarrassment I even thought, what are we doing here? And yet, in my failure to trust God to work through my inadequacy as a parent, He never ceases to amaze me with His faithfulness and timing. The message was straight from God's mouth to my heart. I should have been the one pulling out the camera and capturing the moment. For anyone, who like myself, struggles with joy at this; 'the most wonderful time of year', I would strongly encourage you to listen to this message. Our lack of joy would be evidence of our lack of faith and attempt to receive the Spirit by our own good works. And as the apostle Paul (and my pastor) so pointedly reminded us... "You foolish Galatians (or in this case Floridians) who has bewitched you?" Gal 3:1. I captured that message. Not with my camera like Corey wanted to, but with my heart. It was a needed reminder of God's complete work in which I can not add to.
As is typical, our enemy was quick to be about his business and seek to steel joy from my home this week. But Chris and I are standing our ground. We have raised our swords and shields and are fitted with the armor of God against which the enemy can not stand. As he flees from our home (briefcase in hand)..."we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character; and character produces hope." Romans 5:3

To hear the sermon.....and be blessed...click here.



Our biggest challenge as a family now is making decisions in regard to this time of year. What holiday parties to attend and how often to see friends and loved ones (especially the ones visiting from out of town). This is not only the holiday season but also the cold and flu season and that is constantly on our minds. CJ has 5 little cousins and 4 aunts and uncles in town that all want to see him and play with him and we struggle with the weight of those decisions. Please pray for discernment and a shield of protection for CJ against illness. We realize he may be doing well but if anyone else is sick it keeps him away from his family and friends. He has struggled lately with his inability to see people and attend events.
We want to thank everyone who was helping us look for a second vehicle to use to get to and from the appointments and all who have offered to help. We think we have the matter solved at least for a while. My step father had open heart surgery last week. While he is recovering, he is unable to do some of his hobbies. He needed to free up some space in his driveway so he generously offered to let us use his truck until he needs it again. This solved our problem for the time being. We are extremely grateful for his generosity. Thank you Enzo! And thank you everyone who was keeping their eye open for us!
We also want to thank everyone who has continued to provide meals for us to cover the dates we have appointments and hospital visits. It has been a real blessing to our family and we give thanks for each of you and your generosity to us.


20 comments:

Janet S. said...

Dawn, once again, I cried as I read how you are having to talk about death with CJ in a personal way, and what deep thoughts he must be experiencing. I laughed as I read about Corey taking pictures of Al during the message. I felt like I was sitting right there next to you in each situation you mentioned.
Now, you continue to take hold of God's promises and not let the enemy steal your peace.
I love you guys and continue to lift you up in prayer.

aunt char said...

hi guys, i just sat here and listened to your pastor's sermon for 43 minutes!! it didn't seem that long at all. i really learned a lot from him. it was very uplifting and emotional for me.
i loved the way he was serious when he had to be and also funny at times. i loved the way he acknowledged your family when you walked in to church and also when he said colleen i didn't forget about you.i am praying for you guys all the time and hope each day cj adjusts better to his treatments. i love you guys.
aunt char

~Jamie~ said...

Dawn,
Its swet how CJ, thinks so much about other people weather he knows them or not. Not many children show so much emotion/though for others.
Your children all sound so smart and sweet.
i hope things get heaps better of the holidays, i will continue to prey for CJ.

XX Amber (jamie)
PS does, CJ have a song that he realy likes? im thinking of adding it in to the book im making for you guys :)
do you and your husband have a song that you like? what about the other kids?

Enzo said...

Dawn,

I was so happy at 6:00 a.m. when I came in to "Break the Mold" with my first cup of coffee in hand. I think I have a new addiction. Looking for updates and reading everyone's comments. Speaking of the comments I've learned so much from them and the people writing them. My sister-in-law Nicole and I have known each other about 25 years and I feel I really have a glimpse into her heart for the very first time. Is that possible? Do we all just sit around and talk about meaningless things for 25 years and then something like this and wow people rise to the occasion. My sister in law Char writes and she always wears her heart on her sleeve so I already know how she is. I promise to hear pastor's sermon within the next two days also. Maybe you should post it for us each week.

I had to write all of that before I could even let my fingers write about CJ contemplating what death is like and how sad it is and what it means. Every one has a time in their life when they finally realize their mortality. 9 is a lot too early. My husband is 56 and his first time was last week waiting for open heart surgery. He keeps thinking on that now also. I'm sorry but my heart and head won't let me think on anything but full complete recovery for CJ. I know this will be so. I know though that he is intelligent enough and sees enough at the hospital to know that it is possible. Please God don't let this be too painful for him.

I also am so concerned for CJ during this strongest phase of treatment and pray that he will not suffer physically either. I'm sorry he got sick at the rest. but at least you guys keep trying to do little outings that will keep his spirits up.

Hopefully, he will rejoice in seeing his cousins, aunts and uncles and God will put a protective shield around him from any extra germs. An idea is that instead of visitng inside the houses you can sit in the open air in your back yard or Colleen's back yard or my back yard.

Hey guys, CJ received packages from the Jets, the Yankees, the Giants and the NFL official Judges. Go guys. These are my teams for the time being.

I can hardly go anywhere....walking in the neighborhood, the grocery store, the bank, the casino (yes even at the casino I take collections for CJ and they are making a basket of toys for the kids at Joe DiMaggio)my work... where everyone doesn't ask about my grandson or I see their blue bracelets. I went to my neighbor Pams yesterday and the first thing I saw was a big present for CJ and she informed me that she bought presents for all the kids so CJ wasn't the only one getting attention. Everyone I know is praying for my darling Grandson. Oh yea, the Cobra club guys too. I'm so grateful to everyone. If anyone ever wanted to give me the most special gift for Christmas just add CJ even more often to your prayers. That is what I want. I know God is hearing these prayers and giving comfort to the George family and healing to my grandson. My brother John has a defibrilator and a pace maker and his heart only works about 20 percent but he cries for my grandson, not himself. Thank you God.


I love you guys.

Mom

Anonymous said...

Hi guys,

I hope the glimpse is a good one!

Of all the posts you have written I think this was the hardest one for me. We always think of CJ and include of all you in our prayers but ... we think of the terrible illness, the painful medecine and the long road to recovery CJ and you have to endure. We have never gone farther. Now to read this and realize that a 9 year old boy has to think of his mortality is just overwhelming. Like Paula I can not and will not think of it again. I, we, will continue to pray a for a fast and uncomplicated recovery.

Lots of love
Nicole Alberto and Ana

Anonymous said...

CJ,
I am so sorry that you have to worry about life and death questions so young. But, I am also so thankful. Because I am fully confident and sure that you are going to recover fully, that when and as you do, you will live life to the fullest for God's Glory and you will be and do something so amazing with this experience.

I am so thankful to Jen and her family for living and dying for such a cause. I read about her and starred at her picture for some time after the party. I kept picking it up and looking at her day after day. I am so thankful for her and her family. That she and they are here to help you through this. Jen is clearly still alive in the hearts of many and helping children with cancer and relatives of children with cancer far beyond what she could of ever imagined.

CJ,
Through my studies, I know that God is for us, not against us. He loves us and wants what is best for us. He is using you and your current situation to restore many for His Glory. You are healing. Keep your faith. Faith is the most powerful thing in the entire universe.

Dawn,

Thank you doesn't even sound gracious enough for how thankful and humbled I am by your openess. It must be so hard to watch your son go through such a thing. As our Father watched His own son. I am so happy, another word that doesn't seem big enough to describe my feelings, that you are "keeping your eyes on Jesus". You and your family are focusing on the journey, lesson, and service He is laying in front of you. Your obedience will be rewarded here and for eternity!

Yes, discernment is a hard thing to master. I struggle with thoughts sometimes or have ideas in my head, only to realize later that the thoughts, excuses, or ideas were from the wrong source. And I quess the only way to establish discernment, is to stay in scripture. That seems to sharpen my discernment. So as you know, because I learned this from you, keep turning to scripture and He will continuously reveal the lies and allow the truth in..

I love you and thank you for your post. I keep thinking of a song we learned in VBS last summer. It said something like "Run, run, run, the race. Keep, keep, keep, the pace. Run the race. Keep the pace. Keep your eyes on Jesus." Stay on your track and you will win.

I love you sis.
Thank you for helping so many of us through your most private moments.

Jacks

Ily(Hearts) said...

WOW, Once again I am speechless.
Dawn, I will be listening to the sermon also. Being that we are going through this wonderful time of the year without my mother in-law this year (since she has gone to be with the Lord) it is very sad for us. Therefore once again this site serves to glorify the Lord. Thanks for sharing your Sunday experience with us. The Lord wanted you to hear the message as well as myself. Once again my friend and sister in Christ THANK YOU!!!!!

XOXO
ILY
SW Ranches, Fl.

Anonymous said...

Dawn,

I just listened to Al's sermon. I needed that SO BAD! I have been living under the CURSE for some time now. I thank you for sharing that valuable teaching with us. I feel free from my obligations to have consistency that I have been trying to maintain with a now 9 month old. I walk around feeling like a failure because I can't accomplish what I want to do daily with my readings and "alone" time with the Lord. I spend all my time feeling bad and depressed. I knew something was wrong and that I was and am missing the blessing the Lord has given me with Kyle. I have seen Kyle more as an obstacle then a blessing at some moments and I know that is wrong and not how I want to feel. I thank you for that message. Please post today's message if it is not too difficult for you. I would love to hear it.

Love,

Jacks

Break the Mold said...

Friends,
I want to thank you for the posts. All the posts mean so much to us. Just like the blog means a lot to you and helps you feel connected to us the comments encourage us and remind us that we are not alone in this. Thank you for being by our side (virtually) throughout all of this. I am so thankful for this technology that allows me to feel connected to all of you. Please know that you don't have to know us to comment. Many friends have told me that others tell them they want to comment but don't know us well. We welcome all comments. Let us know you are there, it really does help more than you could know, and feel free to post annonymous if you want.

Many of the posts have really affected me and challenged me.

What my mom said about never really knowing people that well really challenged me. How we can know someone for years and never really talk about anything that will last. We chit-chat and do the daily stuff but never really challenge the friendship on a deeper level. Sometimes I would laugh and visualize seeing someone in heaven and saying, "Hey I didn't expect to see you here. You never mentioned knowing Him ..." but then I realized they would have to say.."Neither did you." How can two people have the greatest love story in common, the best friend in common, the same destination in common and never discuss it or share it with eachother? I don't know when the enemy made it taboo to discuss matters of faith but it is high time the body of Christ put an end to it. I am tired of hearing that the workplace is no place for Jesus, the schools are no place for Jesus and that our faith can be seperated from our relationships amd politics. It can't. Jesus did not say 'keep all that seperate and follow me in your spare time...' he said "take up your cross and follow me.."
okay, okay...deep breath.... I better stop....I can really get going....sorry. I just hate seeing the enemy have any area of victory and this is one area he is doing quite well. Compartmentalizing our life. There are even people who have told me they can't or won't comment even here because a co-worker or someone may read their posts. Heaven forbid they know you are a Christian! There I go again sorry.....!
I just thought of a song I recently gave to my 'ubelieving' friend (who I want to strangle at this point). It is a good thing his salvation is up to the Lord and not my ability to witness to him effectively or I would really have a complex by now. Nevertheless,God has asked me to pray and witness to this individual. The words of the song go like this....
"Here I go again, talking 'bout the rain, and mulling over things, that won't live past today. And as I dance around the truth, time is not his friend. This may be my last chance to tell him that You love him.....but, here I go again."
by: Casting Crowns
Friends, let's stop dancing around the truth and mulling over things that won't live past today!

On a lighter note, I was also very affected by Jackie's post. (She is my little sister for those of you who do not know) It is evident how much your faith and your knowledge has grown in these past months. You can literally see it in the progression of the comments. Many people have noticed and told me they see it too. I am so proud of you and your willingness to listen and discern and apply what you are learning to your life. You remind me so much of me working through matters of faith when I was younger. I see that same passion in you and desire to know Him and please Him. I want you to know that I always struggled with the bad example I set before you when we were younger. I don't know if I ever specifically asked for your forgiveness for that. I know I have asked for it for five million other things but not for that. So, now I do, here in front of the whole world. It is fitting, isn't it? I lead you to the world and now I ask forgiveness in front of the world.
So, that said, when I read your posts and hear that you are now following my example as I follow the example of Christ, and you are running to the Savior and seeking to replace the lies the world has told us with Truth, I am humbled. It is amazing that God would allow the same person to lead you away from Him and then back to Him.
I like the VBS song that came to your head. I wanted to give you the scripture that immediately came in my head when I read it...

Hebrews 12:1-3
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and protector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning it's shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

Wow! That is rich my friend! I better get off now because I can spend hours on that verse alone. Meditate on it this week and lets get together to discuss it andapply it to our lives. I love you....thank you for blessing me with your words today.


Also, I just want to say I love you to my husband and best friend in the world. Chris, I love you beyond words. I thank God every day for blessing me with you as my husband, leader, and friend. I truly believe God used you to give me a glimpse of His great love for me. Thank you! Dawn

Enzo said...

Joy to the World!!

I too listened to Pastor Al last night. I'll say I listened as he first read the versus from Galations that he was going to speak on and maybe even my mind wondered a time or two. I even chuckled a little when he said "lean forward" to hear the message. Chuckle was on me because about 20 minutes later I was still as a mouse and leaning forward to the speaker. It was amazing. I couldn't believe everything I learned and felt. I'm sure my pinkie was twitching. I realized I never heard Pastor Al before in the few times I attended your church and now I plan to go back and listen to the other sermons. Also, sometimes in church I do get distracted but not last night. I dreamed about it and what it all meant.

Like Jackie said I think so many times Christians give up and don't feel joy because we never feel good enough, we don't get up early enough, read the Bible consistently enough, do good all the time. What a curse and what a good way for Satan to win. It was because Pastor kept saying it over and over in every way possible that it finally sinks in. I loved the part about Abraham knowing the gospel through God ahead of time just be faith looking forward and how after Christ's death we all look back to the cross. I love the part about how he said to be joyous even with trials and pointed out the Georges. It is true. You guys are sad, sure, but praise God all the time faithfully. Joy to the World.

Mom

Enzo said...

Dawn,

One more thing. You are correct. It is so weird that we can talk about football teams, baseball teams, hockey teams, for hours and hours. We can sit and share all the stats about the players. We can buy all the clothes and hats for the team. But try to speak that long to anyone about God, about Jesus, the names of the disciples, buy the clothes with their symbols and you are labeled as a religious fanatic or a "Jesus freak". Go figure.

Mom

Martha Rivero said...

Dear Dawn,

Thank you for the sermon’s post, I heard it and it truly touched me, and I liked how he explains in simple words that we are not saved by how we act, or any goodness that can be on us, but we are saved by our Lord’s grace, how wonderful is to know that!!!

"You did not choose me, but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you."
John 15:16

"To the praise of the glory of His grace, which He freely bestowed on us in the Beloved."
Ephesians 1:6


I would like to visit your church sometime for sure. Also my heart hurt as I read how CJ is thinking about death, it is absolutely normal how he is feeling, it is good that as a family you are wisely explaining what it means and how it is not at our eyes and heart in fear, but through God’s eyes and heart.

I will continue to pray for CJ healing, but most of all going through this advance treatment phase, to keep him strong in all aspects.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight”.

(Proverbs 3:5-6)

In Christ,

Martha

Break the Mold said...

Martha,
Hi, I am so glad you listeneed to the sermon. I knew you would really appreciate it and the truth would go straight to your heart. You are extremely hard on yourself and you can rest in the assurance that you stand perfected before the throne of God because of Jesus perfect righteousness, not anything we can do to be good enough. Our joy is in Him and His finished work not anything we can do to be better moms, wives, or people.

I want to share my husband and I's new favorite quote with you....

"The only people that will get better are the ones who know that God won't be angry (or love them any less) if they don't get better"
Corey Schmatjen

Isn't that awesome! And freeing!

He also said "Instead of being obsessed with our own sin, let us be as obsessed with God's grace and favor.

I gotta run, I will email you later. Here is one more God is bringing to mind....

Love to you and praying for you and your family,
Dawn

"For every look at your sin you need to take ten looks at the cross." Al Pino

Anonymous said...

Hey Guys,

I couldn't sleep. Merry Christmas Eve! I am not sure why I can't sleep. But, as I layed in bed and my mind started going over my guest list for Christmas breakfastf for the third time, I got up. I came to the blog and scrolled to the very begining and read all of CJ's poems. Then, I scrolled up looking at all the pictures. What an amazing journey. Dawn, you have captured so many beautiful moments and anywhere I stopped and read there was God!

I don't think I have ever gotten up in the middle of the night and done anything this worthy with my time! Thank you for a truly holy, God filled site! And the poems and pictures are so heart warming!

I love you, Chris, Allie, CJ, Brett, and Corey! You are all true blessings in my life. God's blessings truly are spectacular!

Love,

Jacks

Anonymous said...

C.J., Dawn, and Chris,

Here it is! It is Christmas Eve! As I see my kids all excited about Christmas morning and opening their gifts, I realized it is a night of great expectations. You know something awesome will happen the next day, it will not be like any other day. It's not about the size, price, or quantity of the gifts. It's about the fact that somebody that loves you is going to surprise you with something to express his love for you. God surprised us with a wonderful gift that we did not deserved. Tonight our family goes to bed knowing what the gift is: Jesus, but the excitement is still there. After His birth, nothing was the same.

My prayer is that your family goes to bed with that joy. No matter your circumstances, you received the same great gift. Our trials are temporary, His gift is forever. Rejoice in the hope that the baby born tomorrow brings. Thank God for holding C.J.'s life on His hand and not letting go. Sing for the joy of being together as a family and feeling the love of all your friends. There is reason to celebrate, just look inside C.J.'s heart and you will find them all in there.

We love you and Merry Christmas,
Wirley Family

Ily(Hearts) said...

George Family,
We wish you the best Christmas ever, May the love of the Lord surround you today and always. You are in our prayers today and everyday.
Blessings,
Ily and her Gang
SW Ranches, Fl.

C Medina said...

It is always amazing to read your posts. May this season be filled with the joy of knowing God's enormous love for us!
Love, The Medinas

Alexa said...

Dawn,

I finally read your blog today. What a blessing that CJ brings up things one by one. He is such an insightful, perceptive and caring child and God has provided such wonderful parents for him.

I was struggling this Christmas season with how meaningless "Shopmas" can be, wondering about all the traditions and things that either I've done or have seen others do that really amount to nothing without God. Its mind boggling to me to have "Happy Holidays" taking Christ out of Christmas or Christ out of anything for that matter. Its ok to say all sorts of things now a days, but speaking of Jesus or Christ, well that can be seeking for trouble. Politically incorrect. I've seen disclaimers on movies etc. when God or Jesus are spoken of, but the filthy words and all sorts of immorality is ok. What?!

Our life is but a vapor....I heard Als sermon that you recommended, actually heard both of them. They were really encouraging and convicting. Do I feel better when I have done my "quiet time", etc...? When I've done a good deed, or served in some way? I would have to say no, but I tend to feel more secure. I know that I am no more secure, but I am works oriented and have had a hard time understanding grace and mercy. So the message was great.

I love you guys, praying for you.

Much love,
Alexa

Janet M said...

Hello George Family, As Alexa, I finally found time to read your blog. I was glad that I did not miss any postings since your last one about CJ's star. As always the experiences God is putting you and your family through (and how you handle them) never stop amazing me -- they are life lessons for us all. I am so glad you are able to share them with not only me, but all of us. As you grow spiritually through them, we grow too. Tell CJ God has allowed his situation to happen for a cause as well -- to make us all stronger in our faith or to make those without faith to see the one true God. We admire you CJ for your strength and maturity as you continue to go through this. As you held Jen's heart in your hands it makes me think of your heart and what a strong, thoughtful, couragetious heart the Lord has given you. CJ, thank you for making all of us who share in your daily activities stronger in our faith as we watch you walk in the Spirt with our Jesus. We love you and can't wait to walk in your victory.

Poppa Jerry said...

Well CJ, Poppa finally broke down and bought a refurbished version of his old computer (so as not to be too challenged), and, I can finally post comments to you like anyone else.
It has been quite a journey so far. I guess after reading the last thousand or so comments (yes count them - it's over a thousand) I have come to realize that He (Hashem to my fellow messianic Jewish friends) is the "tie that binds" us all together. At the begimmimg I thought it was you, CJ, that we are all looking to and praying for and feeling poorly and sorry for and having concern for.
But as the weeks have gone by and the blog began to grow and the comments bared souls and spirits rose and love abounded and scripture was expounded - great -GREAT things began to happen.
You, CJ, showed your old Poppa how to speak his heart to G-d. How to share his most inner thoughts and needs with the One Living G-d, and how to learn what love, true love really is. A love that pours over you, CJ, with fountains of blogs that cover every page and daily comment.
Yes, you are not the focus, you are the Light in the dark that shines on to Him to Whom all Glory is due. There is a saying: "The son is father to the man." Thank you CJ, for showing this old boy what strength and courage truly is. I love you with all of my heart and always will.
Poppa Jerry