Sunday, September 28, 2008

Sunday, September 28

Steroids make you hungry! Just ask CJ. All he does is eat and eat and eat. They told me this would happen but I did not realize just how much he could eat. It is strange and refreshing to watch him eat so much because for the last two or three months he has struggled so much with eating because of his stomach always being upset. He still looks really good (like himself) just a little pale. We took him outside in the front yard a little to get some fresh air since it was overcast and not too hot out. He took his sling shot with him and shot some rocks into different targets. It was nice to see him do something he likes to do and would typically do.

He surprised the whole family yesterday. He asked us all to sit down because he had something for us. He pulled out a bag I did not recognize and said he wanted to give a gift to each of us because he has been the one receiving all the cards and gifts. He said he wanted to do it to say thank you for all we have done to take care of him. He also got one for Melinda and grandma who took care of the house and kids while we were in the hospital. Of course he had an accomplice in this since he has not been out of our sight or had time to go shopping. He asked my mom get the gifts and wrap them for him. She sneaked him the bag. This is so like CJ. He loves to give to others. He definitely finds joy in the giving more than the receiving. I find it amazing that he can focus on others even while he is going through so much himself.

He has spent the last two days in the house writing thank you letters to his friends and family. And I mean beautiful letters, not thank you notes or cards...letters. He will sit at the desk for hours writing to others. He writes with an eloquence I did not even know he was capable of and I am his teacher. I am more honored to be this boys mother than I ever have been. I don't know why God afforded us this privilege. I don't deserve it.

CJ has appointments this week Monday, Wednesday and Friday at the pediatric ambulatory outpatient unit for various chemotherapy. Please pray that his blood counts stay up. We are asking God to destroy the cancer cells while protecting his healthy cells. Please God let it be.

We are also asking for continued prayer for wisdom for us as his parents. We are struggling with how much to read, research, and consider. We have stayed off the Internet thus far knowing our hearts are just not ready. Some emails I have received have opened floodgates of emotions I was not prepared for so I have had to wait. Yet we know at some point we need to jump into this with both feet and do the research necessary to stay on top of his treatment and become part of this new community of people we now find ourselves in. I don't think the reality of it all has set in yet. I heard myself tell someone recently that CJ has cancer and the words didn't form properly on my tongue. It sounded so foreign to say that I couldn't even recognize the sound of my own voice as I said it. Chris doesn't say it at all and doesn't like to hear me say it. I think God is still tending to our hearts, but a part of me feels like precious time is being lost that I should be reading more or learning more. We just can't, yet.

We humbly ask you to persevere with us in prayer. We are grateful for each and every one of you that has stood by us these past two weeks. We rest in our saviors arms first and foremost and then we rest on the abundance of your prayers lifting us up.


Chris and Dawn George


gathering said...

CJ, That is so sweet of you to get gifts for everyone :-) You are such a thoughtful person. I give thanks to God for your love for him and others, which is so evident in the things you say and do. Thank you for being a bright light to many, even when your not feeling too good.

I think its so great your writing. I wanna see more poems :-), they are so inspiring.

You and your family are in our constant thoughts and prayers and we'll be praying about tomorrow.

Love you guys,
Mrs. Chisholm

Luke 6:38 Give, and it will be given to you: good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.

Anonymous said...

CJ, Dawn, Chris, Allie, Brett, and Corey,

I realize I haven't been addressing all of you in my comments. But, the siblings are as much a part of this as the rest of you. Thank you for taking the time to post Dawn. It means alot to me as well as everyone else, I am sure. I woke up thinking today of a young man they interviewed during the olympics. He participated in a sport. I think it was swimming. We'll they were interviewing him because he was diagnosed with cancer right before the olympics. He said something that has been in my head all morning. He said "I have cancer, cancer doesn't have me".

I love you dear sister and know that this is the biggest and scariest emotional roller coaster you have ever been on. Stay grounded in your faith and family. The ride will eventually come to a "new" end. I have learned so much spiritually through this. It pretty much lines up with things Jesus has told me about in the Bible. Like how we should be character wise, how we should love, how we should offer the other cheek. This experience makes me humble and never wanting to go back to that old person that read the words but didn't really get it.

We'll I love you dear sister! And I don't know if I ever thanked you. But, thank you for giving me the most wonderful present ever "after praying for my salvation", my niece and nephews! Thank you for not giving up on me and allowing me to be in their lives. I can think of many times where I did not deserve to be blessed with their presence!


Your little sis,

Heather said...

I am so glad you got to go outside and shot your sling shot. You again remind me of David!
You have such a BIG HUGE heart. You are such an example to all of us and how we should be more Christ like.
I love you and miss you all so much! I wish I was down there ;) We are boldly praying without ceasing for all of you.
Aunt Heather

Dawn & Chris you will know when you are ready :)

Anonymous said...

Hey guys,
Can't wait to see you, hug you, and pray with you. Thinking of you, praying for you, missing you, love you all!!!!

Uncle Terry, Aunt Karen, Lindsay, Scott, Eric & Jenn

faith2pray said...

May you always recall the many blessings in the midst of this trial. Our hearts, tears, worship and prayers are with you. Psalm 144...

Because of Jesus,

Marilena, Lukas & Raquelita

Anonymous said...

CJ, thank you for living out the gospel, I am sure the Lord is well pleased. To Him be the Glory! We will continue to pray for your physical condition, but most of all we pray that the Joy of the Lord continue to be your strength. Lean on the Faithfulness of God.
Roberto & Iliana Magunagoicoechea

Anonymous said...

Psalm 36:5
Your mercy, O LORD, is in the heavens;Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.

the Lords faithfulness reaches to the Clouds!!
that's amazing! His love is unending!

Cj, that is such a cool thing you did for your family,
you are still thinking of others in your hard times, you are being a great servant which God wants us to be!
thank you for your great example,


Tammi said...

Dear Dawn,
You also write with an eloquence that is amazing and wonderful and allows me to feel as if I am right there in the front yard with you all, or even in the living room sitting on the couch as CJ gives out his gifts . . . "His gifts." CJ - You are "His Gift" to us. I love you so much and I am so grateful for you and everything that you are teaching me about humility, patience and grattitude. I love you all and I am praying, praying.
Love Always,
Aunt Tammi
P.S. Jackie - your posts keep getting better and better!~ Wow! Keep up the good work, you really sound like your heart is truly chaning and that's wonderful! Good For You!!

Anonymous said...

Hey CJ, I just wanted to encourage you. Last night at Youth Homegroup, there was a surprise party for me, cause I turned 18 on Wednesday. I was really wishing you could be there. At the end, a bunch of people stood up and said things about me, and your sister got up as well. She said that if you had been here you would have said something to honor me, and she thanked me for being a friend to you even though we are so different in age. I want you to know that the pleasure is all mine. You are a blast to hang out with, or even just talk to on the phone. :) Thanks for being a great friend!


Anonymous said...

Hey CJ, glad to hear that you are out of the hospital. We are praying for God to heal you. Here is a link to our website on shutterfly. There are some music videos that may encourage you. Hope you feel better soon.
Quinn Kampf, friend of the Mahfoods.

Anonymous said...

CJ, Dawn, Chris, Ali, Brett, and Corey,

We are so glad to hear that you are home and enjoying your family.

One of our friends wrote a poem many years ago while in Vietnam and sent it to us when we needed it. We would like to share it with you now.


My step is uncertain now, I have lost the way
Night has fallen and surprised me in the desert
It does not matter, I will arrive tomorrow

Lost I am in a misty fog
The sun is hidden and I have lost my bearing
The sea tosses my small weak craft in violent blue-black waves
Port is far away, it does not mater, I will arrive tomorrow

When first I left my garden was in full bloom
Today rain and hail assail my face
I cannot see my way; the trail is hidden by the falling snow, fresh and plentiful.
It does not matter, I will arrive tomorrow

There is no easy route
The Horizon is not in sight
The journeys end is far away
It does not matter, I will arrive tomorrow

You are all in our prayers and thoughts
Nicole, Alberto, Ana & Diego

Anonymous said...

Dearest CJ...keep an eye out for the postman..he has something you will enjoy.
Love Aunt Penny

Anonymous said...

Hi CJ,
You are the coolest kid I have ever met. God is definitely working in you and through you. Keep on trusting him. You give me a lot of strength to face my days. It should be the other way around but, God is using you in ways you don't even know. We love you CJ.
Ily and her gang

Anonymous said...

Dear CJ -

We're so happy to hear that you're home again. You continue to be in our thoughts and prayers, and we trust that God will astound everyone with what He is doing in and through you.

1 Peter 5:7-10
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

When you're able to have visitors, Marcos would love to hang out with you. Until then, stay strong, firm, and steadfast by God's grace.
With all our love,
The Herrero Family

Sonia said...

Dear CJ and family, is amazing the way you are adapting to this situation and Tamy is right CJ is you gift, and the way you write to al of us touchs my hart. I can imagine Paula doing that in a secret way with CJ she also likes to give gifts. We keep praying for all you ask for. The peace fo the Lord is with you.
Sonia, Antonio, Andrea y Alejandra

Anonymous said...

Hey CJ, you look great in your shades. I am so glad you were able to go outside and play. Shooting your slingshot reminded me of David and how brave he was when he killed Goliath. To me, you are as brave as him. One of my friends emailed me today and told me you were an inspiration to her and her family. The Lord is using you mightly CJ to touch so many lifes through your mom's blog, who by the way, if you haven't been reading the blog yourself, has a special gift for writing. We love reading the blog and being kept up on you. Continued prayers for you and the mold. Go away mold!! The Mahfood's and Theodore love you guys.

Anonymous said...

Dearest Dawnie, Chris, Allie, CJ, Brett & Cutie Pie Corey...I read your blog sometimes twice a day. It keeps me informed of all the questions I need answered about CJ so that I can focus all my prayers. I read the part where you two are searching for information regarding something I still call the "C" word. As a survivor of the "C" word; accept the peace that you take it one day at a time. You want to learn everything you can to help CJ but instead of searching endlessly on the internet since there are so many sites and so many opinions, talk with his doctors and have them guide your through all the sites they can point you in the right direction; as opposed to scaring you. Take comfort in knowing that CJ, although ill at this time, is so fortunate to have parents and a family that loves him as much as you do. God's watching and caring and he will guide you to the things that you will need to help him.
Love you lots,
Aunt Penny

Anonymous said...

A Note for Dawn,

Thanks for blessing so many of us through this blog. Your writings move us to prayer and build our faith. Thanks for letting us be a part of your life during this trial.

I will pray for wisdom regarding the amount of information your family should research in order to make decisions. There is just too much out there, and not all positive or reliable. But God will protect you. You will feel ready, when He thinks it is the right time. He will put in your path people and professionals you can trust and they will direct your efforts and share the burden. God did it for me. He is so faithful!!

As I read about CJ's gifts to the family I can only see God's hand in giving you a precious look at your son's heart. You can see the fruit of your godly parenting and of God's grace.

He is not "your son with cancer". His identity is in Christ and it hasn't changed. It will get easier to talk about it as your heart can separate a circumstance (his illness) from who he is, CJ, God's son. CJ's gifts, skills, sweetness, and faith not only are the same, they are now bigger.

On a last note, you and Chris opened your home countless times to serve and bless others. That same unselfish heart will find peace in offering it to the Lord as you go through all the construction and changes. God was always leading your home, and He still is. So don't worry for a minute about what He is doing with your house now. He'll provide the people and the finances to make it the home He has in mind.

With you in my prayers,
Denisse Wirley

Anonymous said...

I will be praying for your son!! It breaks my heart to hear of what he has to go through! Through God all things are possible!

Anonymous said...

When you get a chance to do some research on raw food. A great place to start is
God has created some many foods for us to enjoy. They also have a great healing benifit. I just wanted to share, maybe you can use God's creation to help fight this!

CJ sounds like a very sweet boy! God can use him to touch others. Praying for him and your family.

Anonymous said...

When you get a chance to do some research on raw food. A great place to start is
God has created some many foods for us to enjoy. They also have a great healing benifit. I just wanted to share, maybe you can use God's creation to help fight this!

CJ sounds like a very sweet boy! God can use him to touch others. Praying for him and your family.

Wendy Whitlow said...

Hi Dawn,

I can't begin to tell you how many times I've written something here and then quickly erased it.

I keep asking God for the "right" words of encouragement...the perfect scripture...and yet I fall short everytime.

I just want you to know...I am reading every post and I have read many responses. I feel blessed to know someone who is as passionate for the Lord as you and your family. CJ is super special and it is SO obvious that God is using this season in your lives to bless so many others.
Thank you for being so open with your heart during what has to be a painful experience for all involved.
Please call upon me to do whatever I can to help you all during this time. Jackie will tell you - I am a great babysitter! :)

Dawn and Chris please know I have prayer chains all over the country interceding on your family's behalf. People are really enjoying CJ's poems too! Thank you for making each prayer request specific.

Keep sharing...keep trusting...keep growing.

Has anyone given you Prov 3:5-6? :)

Love, Wendy

Wendy Whitlow said...

Hi CJ,

I am not sure if you remember me but I used to live with your Aunt Jackie, Uncle Harold, and your cousin Kevin. Most recently I saw you at your cousin's high school graduation this summer. I was asking you to help keep an eye on Kevin while Bret and you swam across the big pool.:)

CJ - I know you will have days that you'll feel great...and other days that you will feel not so great...but try not to forget that you have a Heavenly Father that is so much bigger than your worries and He said He will not leave your side.

Psalm 56:3 Says...At what time I am afraid...I will trust in thee. Those were the words spoken by David. He wanted God to know that when he was afraid...He would trust in Him.

You are loved deeply by so many family and friends CJ. Your Mom and Dad's heart swells with such joy to have you as their son. I would be extra proud too.:)

Hang in there...I'm praying for you.

Ms. Wendy

Tammi said...

Dear CJ
Thank you so much for sending a letter to Travis! We got it in the mail yesterday and he just loved it! The picture is great, too! As soon as he saw the envelope he said "Read it to me Mommy! Read it! Read it!" I couldn't get the envelope open fast enough for him. Then when I did get the envelop open he said, "Well what does it say!?" He was so excited and he held the picture in his hand while I read him the letter. Then he asked me to write a letter back to you from him and he told me what to say again. I am putting that one in the mail today for you so you should be getting it soon. Thank you so much for being so awesome.
I Love You CJ,
Aunt Tammi

Stacie said...

CJ, today I looked out my window and saw some boys 8 or 9 years old, climbing 30 foot coconut trees! They would reach the top and then kick out the coconuts with their bare feet! Can you imagine? My nine year old son Austin asked why I wouldn't let him try that. He wants to so badly but I'm too afraid of him falling. He loves doing many of the things the boys here do--especially making and shooting slingshots. Seeing your slingshot, I think you'd probably enjoy life here too.

Dawn and Chris, we are still praying in PNG. We are especially praying for wisdom for the days ahead as you sift through so much information. May God give you discernment and peace during this time. Hugs to your family from ours.

Anonymous said...

Sometimes we ask "why". Well, this is what I read in God's love letter (Bible) this morning and I thought of you, CJ, and your family.
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus christ from the dead, and into an inherictance that can never perish, spoil or fade - kept in heaven for you, CJ, who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith - of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire - may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus christ is revealed. Though you have not seen Him, you, CJ, love Him; and even though you do not see Him now, you, CJ, believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls."
Your faith has proven genuine and we praise God that Jesus is being revealed. Thank you, CJ, for showing us all to be faithful and love and trust Him, even though we do not see Him. We see this through your smiles and your selflessness (thinking of others).
We love you, CJ.
the Sedano family

Anonymous said...

That was 1Peter 1:3-9.

Anonymous said...

Dear Dawn and Chris:

Since I heard your story you have been in my thoughts and prayers. I am Penny Arbulu's co-worker. Reading your blog really remind us how thankful we should be every day and not sweat the small stuff. CJ is an AMAZING child...GOD BLESS HIM!!!! I love his spirit. I know that you are all going through difficult times where decisions need to be made and something that you would have thought was simple like the a/c is now complicated. But don't worry...GOD IS IN CONTROL. His word tells us to...Consider it all joy, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. (James 1:2-4). I will continue to pray for wisdom and discernment for you as parents. Remember God's word reminds us that...if you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him (James 1:5).

God Bless You and I know that right now CJ's visitors have to be kept to a minimum but once he is over this hump...I would love to visit and take my girls. Your in my prayers.

Love in Christ,
Grace Rodriguez

Tammi said...

Dear Dawn:

The following Comment is an e-mail to me from Pamela Fletcher who lives in England and I want CJ and you to have her Comments as well so you see the prayers are coming from as far away as London, England!

Tammi Jo,
The friend I am referring to [that is also praying for CJ] is my best friends Mum. Her name is Betty. Mary is also going to pray for CJ as she is also a Catholic and regularly goes to church. Even though I don't attend church myself, I do believe in our God. I believe he will hear our prayers and he will help CJ to fight this horrible Cancer that is invading his young body.

Yes, darling, I have read the blog. I have seen the photoes. Your family is very beautiful. CJ is a fine handsome young man. Tell Dawn to be strong for her son. It must be the hardest thing in the world for a mother to watch her child suffer. Please tell Dawn we have some powerfull prayers going up to our Father in Heaven. CJ is strong and obviously loved very much by his family and friends. He is a fighter and a believer. He can beat this thing Im sure of it. Love and best wishes to you all.

Love you.xxxxxxx Pam
England, UK

Anonymous said...

Chris and Dawn,
I am a friend of Alexa's and she forwarded me your link. We have been praying for you all and are so encouraged by your faith and hope. My father went to sit at the feet of Jesus in May from cancer and my mother was diagnosed 3 weeks ago. It has been the most difficult year of my life. A difficult journey, but yet I have seen God in so many precious ways. I understand your pain of not wanting to say or hear that word. It is difficult to walk a journey thru cancer, but God will hold you tightly in the palm of His hand (right where WE put things we want to protect). Praying for your dear family.

I loved your poem, very beatiful and you do have a gift for writing!

CeCe said...

You are awesome CJ, I wont put anything more, because you probaly wont read this because there is a new post.