Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Wednesday, September 17....pray for tomorrow

Well, we come to the end of another day. Thank you Lord for your grace to sustain us. We have read through the comments and read them to CJ and we want you to know we are overwhelmed by the outpouring of love towards our family. We are moved at what God is doing amongst His people. We want you to know we have a desire to respond to each and everyone of you personally but of course we just can't. We also want to return all phone calls but we have to be careful about how much we talk in front of him. He is aware of what is happening and knows pretty much everything that is going on although he can not understand it medically. We try to explain it in terms he can understand. He does know he has cancer and that he is having an operation tomorrow to put in a port to help him receive medications to kill the bad stuff. He is very nervous about this so we are leaving it at that for now. We have noticed that the more we talk about it the more nervous he becomes and the more we step out of the room to take calls the more he wonders what is going on. So please forgive us if we can not return your calls immediately. But the messages mean a lot to us and let us know we are not alone and people are still praying for us. Your prayers have become like the air we breathe for us right now. We feel like we would suffocate without them.

Today we had a good report and we thank and praise God for a clear brain MRI and clear chest CT scan. Thank you Lord. CJ also had a EKG of his heart today and a sonogram of his heart. We teased him before the procedure about what they may find inside him and he said it would be cool if they could see God living in him. Then when we went for the sonogram and she pulled up some pictures on the screen and said "Look those are the four chambers of your heart". Well there it was.....A cross divides the four chambers and you can see it clearly on the sonogram.

Other than those two tests, today was a better day for him. No pain, the rash is less itchy and the tests were pain free and quick. Tomorrow, on the other hand, is the big day. He will have the operation we mentioned before about the port being put in. They will also take some bone marrow out of his hip or back bone to determine if this is Lymphoma or Leukemia. The kind he has are very similar and can only be determined with the fluid from the bone marrow. If they find it in his bones then it is Leukemia. If not than it is Lymphoma. He will also be getting his first injection of chemotherapy tomorrow directly into his spine while he is under. I can't believe I am typing this stuff. It seems surreal. Please pray for us to be strong for him.

Friday he has a PET scan of his whole body that maps out exactly where everything is located inside him. This is more for future comparison than for right now. But they need it. Furthermore, we were very disappointed to hear he won't be going home this week like we thought. He will be starting his chemotherapy Friday and they will monitor him for at least a week before they send him home provided he has no fevers and side effects that prolong the stay. We have not mentioned that to him as of yet because we don't want to crush his little spirit before the surgery tomorrow. Please pray with us fervently that he will receive the chemo well and not get fevers and reactions that delay his release. Ask for God to have favor on us and allow him to heal as painlessly as possible and with no further complications. We want to walk through this as much as possible as a family together and being separate is very difficult. I can not describe how torn I feel between being with CJ and my daughter and two little boys at home who need their mommy. Thank you to all those making it possible for me to be with CJ during this delicate time. I am also so so so thankful for the amazing husband God has provided me with to lead me through this difficult time. He has been so strong for me and especially for CJ. Please pray for God to sustain his strength as he leads us through this. We follow him as he follows Christ!


mefea said...

It was so great to see you today! Even through the pain always remember that God has the BEST for you and will use ALL of this for His good. Stay strong my friend, You have a BIG and MIGHTY God right by your side and HE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU!!!

Love you CJ!
Aka: King of the FLIES :)

*you'll have to tell me how you like that book when you finish it ;)


Heather said...

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you the most you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied, "The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you."

I know that the Lord is carrying you all right now too.

Thank you Dawn for keeping up this blog. I want to be there so bad, but the blog makes me feel like I am there. You amaze me!
Chris, big do too! I love you all so very much! are inspirational! We will be praying for you all tomorrow!

Aunt Heather
& your cousins

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Stacie said...

Dear CJ, You don't know us but we know your friend Jacob Derrickson. We live in Papua New Guinea and work as missionaries/maritime specialists with Wycliffe Bible Translators. We know God always has a plan and we are praying for you. We are 14 hours ahead of you so you are being prayed for all day by your friends in Florida and all night by your friends in Papua New Guinea! We are sending hugs your way. Look for them when the sun rises. God bless! Tim and Stacie McIntosh, Austin, Kylah, Lucas and Weston

shawn said...

Chris and Dawn
You guys are amazing parents and I am encouraged by your steadfast faith.

Give my little buddy a big hug for me and tell him I love him.

susan said...

Hi CJ and family,

You don't know me but I am Derek's mom in Massachusetts. He and his wife, Amy, have asked us to pray along with Derek's sister in Ohio, and brothers in Texas and New York.
Our church in New Hampshire is also praying! Thank you for the wonderful blog updates so we know more specifically how to pray. We hope everything goes very well today and that God gives you much, much strength and courage!

Psalm 27
"The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?"

Psalm 56:3
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee."

My husband and I will be praying for you all constantly and will lift you up in our "Senior Saints" meeting today in New Hampshire!

Much love to you all-

Martha-Heartbeat of Miami said...

CJ, as I was praying for you this morning the Lord gave me these two Bible verses,just for you, His very special brave little boy.

Isaiah 58:8
"Then your (CJ's) light will break forth like the dawn, and your (CJ's)healing will quickly appear; then your (CJ's) righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your (CJ's) rear guard."

Malachi 4:2
"But for you (CJ) who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you (CJ) will go out and leap like calves released from the stall."

faith2pray said...

May the joy of the LORD be with you as you trust him and cry out to him for peace. Psalm 133 & 134

faithful in prayer,


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Stephanie Pino said...

Cj, every time I read this blog I go away amazed at your trust in God.... its convicting to me, when I don't trust in Him with the little things, let alone the big ones.

I don't even think you know how many people you are affecting and encouraging, and maybe even leading to the Lord, throughout this process!! I believe MANY!!! I hope that encourages you! You are being used by God in such a HUGE way right now, through your trials.

Today, you have so many behind you praying and fasting for you. Every time i start to get really hungry, i think of you, and the pain you you've had to go through, and i start praying for you again. I trust that just as God will sustain me through this fast, He will sustain you through your time of surgerys, pain, and fears.

I wished i could have visited you last night! And been able to bring you those cookies personally :P . They were fun to bake with allie, but i bet they were more fun to eat! haha... Hope you enjoyed them!! This sounds cheesy but they were made with LOTS OF LOVE!

-Steph P

Anonymous said...

CJ your faith is absolutely inspirational to me and convicts me every time I read the blogs.

Chris & Dawn thank you so much for keeping these blogs updated when you have so much going on. Your strength and faithfulness in our Lord is truly humbling.

I will be praying for you all.

Love, The Espinosa Family

Anonymous said...

CJ, Dawn, Chris & Family;

GOD is definitely in control and we are all praying for you during this storm.

Your an amazing young man.

Love ya - Jessica

Anonymous said...

Hey CJ!

Keep up the fight buddy! I was reading in Psalm 31 yesterday and I though of you, particularly in verses 19, 23, and 24.

19 Oh, how abundant is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you and worked for those who take refuge in you, in the sight of the children of mankind!

23 Love the Lord, all you his saints! The Lord preserves the faithful but abundantly repays the one who acts in pride. 24 Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!

Keep on fearing the Lord more than your circumstances and know that God is storing up His goodness for you! He preserves and rewards those who trust in Him!

Chris, I also wanted to thank you for the way that you have led your family. I know that the faith we all see in CJ is directly related to years of faithful and faith-filled parenting on you and Dawn's behalf, and your example to him of man who trusts God in the midst of confusing and difficult circumstances. Keep on keeping on!

Anonymous said...

Dear CJ and Family...
Hi, I am Lenny Machin's sister and although we do not know each other I just wanted you to know that I along with our church are praying for God's consistent and persistent miracles in your lives....that His grace will get you through this time and your strength will be renewed every day.
Thank you for taking the time to blog and keep us posted with updates...Your words, your faith and your perseverance is a testimony to us all of God's truly amazing grace in the midst of pain. And although this might not seem like much, your lives and your testimony have not just touched me, you are touching many lives worldwide!!
May His favor continue to open heaven's doors and his goodness and mercy follow you wherever you find yourself!!
Doris Machin

Anonymous said...

We are praying, may you find strength in the Lord and peace in His presence.
With love, The Grays

(Victoria says she hopes CJ gets better soon.)

Cee C. said...

You are so cool. I could never be like you. Please know that so many people are praying for you to get better. Like you mom said in the last post (was it the last post?), it has spread to diferent states, diferent countrys! Can you believe that! When you are older, you will marvel at how so many people were praying for you, you will marvel how you actualy went through that, and stood through it all that time. Wow. You are amazing. Hope I can visit you too! Have a good time in the hospital with all the nice people. I have been in that hospital a few times, and ALL the people are nice. See Ya Later!


Anonymous said...

Hey, CJ. Sorry I haven't come by to see you again & bring you doughnuts, but you and your family have been in my prayers daily. You are truly an amazing young man and God has blessed you with wonderful parents and family. We will continue to pray for the Lord to take away your pain and let you go home soon.

Mario S.

Anonymous said...

Hi Cj,
you should have seen Jeremy and Nicho yesterday as we took our lunch time to pray for you, they were flat on the floor really crying out to our father to heal you in their own words and you know what, they will do the same today...your are an example of faith for them and me too ;).

Chris and Dawn, we love you and miss you, we would love to go and visit you. You are in our prayers the whole day and we are trying to care the best we can for your family down here :)
Hin His Grace
The Abeggs

Anonymous said...

My mom started a thread on her club sites for her work. They are forums for guys who build cars. All these men are responding to the posts with amazing words of encouragement. They have over 1200views and almost a hundred comments. Many of these men are praying for CJ. One man we don't even know from Michigan wrote a poem for CJ. I wanted to share it with you all because we believe it is a message to our family straight from God.

There is a young lad
His name is CJ
I learned that through this thread
I looked to the Lord and a prayer was said,

The lord looked down to CJ
Touched his heart to make him strong,
And let him know he would be there
Even though the road may be long

CJ just so you know
You've done nothing wrong
And know were all here
To help make you be strong

Jim in Whitmore Lake, Michigan

Thank you sir for those words. You can not know how exactly personal they are. Thank you for allowing God to speak to uor family through you.

Anonymous said...

CJ I am soooooo HAPPY that the Lord is hearing our prayers and he blessed you with a clean brain and lung scan. God id GREAT!!!!!!! It must of been really cool to see your heart. You will have to tell me about it one day. Hope your day is a beautiful one. You are in our every prayers.
Ily Fiugeroa and her gang

Tammi said...

Dear CJ,
Hi Sweetheart! I am praying for you and listening for GOD and waiting. I am praying for your Daddy and your Mommy. I have Faith that you are going to get better now. I love you with all my heart and soul. I am thankful for your Daddy and your Mommy and that they are so strong and faithful to the LORD and that they are there to take care of you. GOD gave you to them because He knew your life even before you were born and He knew everything that was going to happen and He knew that your Mommy and your Daddy were the parents that were going to be able to love you and take care of you throughout your life. I am grateful that GOD gave you to me to be my nephew to love and I am here loving you and praying for you always. Travis and Jerri send their hugs and kisses and hugs and kisses and hugs and hugs and hugs and kisses!!!
We Love You CJ
Aunt Tammi

Anonymous said...

CJ you are in my thoughts everyday. GOD will cure you. I am praying for you everyday.

Your friend always,

p.s.-My mom and dad Susy & Edel are praying for you as well.

The 4 M Familia said...

The CJ, we have been following your progress daily. It is good to read that prayers have already been answered.
We know that you are going to get through this with God's help. Your faith in the Lord is so wonderful and it is the one thing that sustains us in times like this.
Dawn and Chris, we are praying the Lord gives you extra strength and energy. We love you all and continue to pray for you.

The 4 M Familia (Mario, Marsha, Marcia and Magdalena)

Anonymous said...

The Lord reminded me of a song, and I've been singing it for the past few days whenever He brings you and your family to my thoughts...'Our God is an awesome God; He reigns from heaven above
with wisdom, power, and love. Our God is an awesome God!'
The God we serve is truly awesome, thank you for your faith, even when it's has so encouraged me and provided such an example to our family. We love you, and continue fighting the good fight of faith through prayer on your behalf!

The Gonzalez Gang,
Marcos, Becky, Gabriel, Amanda, & Sophia

Anonymous said...

Thinking and praying for you continuously CJ. We love you so much and will see you soon!
Love you guys!
Uncle Terry, Aunt Karen, Eric, Jen, Scott & Lindsay

Anonymous said...

CJ, My family and I have been praying for you and we hope you get well soon. I want to let you know that God is with you every step of the way,just like your family. Also, that you have no need to fear because God is on your side and He is bigger than anything in the universe!He loves you and will protect you.He will never leave you. ;) :) love, Noah S.

Anonymous said...

Hi CJ we are praying for you!!!!!! We all need you to get well. YOU are a very special boy and are loved by many people. You are so special that even prople that do not know you are praying for you. That is how many lives you've touched and are not even aware of how God is using you. God is doing a great work in you. Keep talking to the Lord he is with you at all times. Dawn and Chris you guys are also very special, awesome parents. Keep up the great work.
Ily Figueroa

Unknown said...

How are you big guy? Well ever since I found out you weren't feeling well I've been praying for you with every breath I take. There hasn't been a day that's gone by that I haven't asked for you. I'm trying to teach Emma how to say "feel better CJ" :) I want you to know that all of Harold's family is here praying for you. We will visit as soon as we can. Stay strong little buddy. We love you

Dawn and Chris,
I admire you're strength through this. I pray for you and the rest of the family as well. Our hearts, love, thoughts and prayers are with you every second of the day.... see you soon


Carmen Behar said...

Hi CJ,
We've reached some more people today and some more prayer circles. We know God is surrounding you with HIS BIG ARMS because of all the prayers that He's hearing about you! You are so special to God. Paul, Chloe and Noah think you are SO BRAVE. They send you a BIG HUG! Stay STRONG can do all things through Christ who strengthens you!
Love and hugs, The Behar Family

Anonymous said...

Hi Dawn, reading your emails have been very inspiring. I will continue to keep you in my heart, my mind and prayers. I know that God is with you and CJ working His miracles. I know that the hardest thing for me has been to completely surrender to His will and not to focus on the temporary struggles we are having. We are so much more than we can see touch or even begin to understand. But I know it can be very painful to let go. I'm still learning how to do this, specially when how I would want things to be are not what they are. As Paul write to the Corinthians "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God." I will pray that CJ and all those that care so much for him will too be comforted by God. Wilma

Anonymous said...

hi CJ,its Kiera and Clare Loftus. We want you to know we're thinking of you and praying for you all the time. We hope you can get out of the hospital soon. We would love to come play with you some time soon. Kiera & Clare

Anonymous said...

Chris & Dawn, Our family is always thinking of you and wish we could do more to help. Please let us know if there is anything you need. We have been keeping up to date on CJ through your blog and are so happy that the you have received some encouraging news. Whatever you need we are there for you. I don't want to bother you, but if you need anything please call.
Jim, Candy, Kiera & Clare

Anonymous said...

Dear C.J., Chris, Dawn, Allie, Brett & Corey,

I am a friend of Sheryl Schmatjen's (Corey's Mother) and she called me night before last and asked me to be praying for C.J. Then, at my home-group ladies get together last night, Mia Nash requested prayer for you, too. The ladies at the meeting last night offered up many prayers for you all. I have been praying yesterday and today everytime you come to mind (which is often). I have read your blog and LOVE your poems, C.J. Twenty-four years ago I had bone cancer and went through chemotherapy and radiation treatments and by the grace of God was completely healed. My prayer is that you will be miraculously healed, too. Dawn & Chris, may you feel God's love and protection around is beyond my comprehension to even slightly imagine what you are going through. I am so thankful that you have our precious God in your lives.

We have a 2 year old little girl at Metrolife Church who is going through intense chemotherapy. She is a precious little girl who we are all praying for, too. In case you don't know about it there is a site called "" that you can go on to and give updates and people can check it out and send you messages as well. It is a wonderful way to keep up with day-to-day happenings and it is free, too.

Praying for you.

Betty Vallery

Anonymous said...

Hi Dawn, CJ and family. I am a friend of Amy Derrickson's, a fellow homeschooling mom and member of her small group from church. Our group has been praying for you since last Sunday, adn Amy has been sending us updates. please don't feel you have to respond to this, as I know how busy and drained you all are right now. I just wanted to let you know you have been deeply on my heart this week. CJ, your faith is both inspiring and humbling. Know our God loves you tremendously and holds you tenderly in His arms. He also takes great pride and joy, I am sure, in your dependence and faith in Him.

In His hands,