Thursday, January 8, 2009

Beyond all Question...

I am so sorry for how long it has taken me to get a post up. Thank you for emailing and asking about CJ. Thank you for praying faithfully for him even when you are not sure how he is doing. One reason I have not been able to get on is that I have been trying to spend more time alone with the Lord, more time alone with each kid, and more time with my husband. I know that sounds weird coming from a full time stay at home mom who homeschools all her children. But one thing I have learned over the years is you can live in the same house and spend day after day 24/7 with your children and never really spend time with them at all. Not quality time at least. So I have been aiming for quality time and that takes time. The other is just exhaustion that prevents me from being able to stay up and blog after they get to bed. So I apologize for not providing an update sooner. I took CJ to his appointment on Thursday and began to blog while we were there. I was not able to get it up at the time so I will finish it and add it below. It should bring you up to date on his treatments.

Thursday January 8, 2009:

We are at Pediatric Ambulatory for CJ's Intrathecal Spinal Tap and and increased dose of chemo. As I prepare to go in to the procedure room with him I begin to prepare my heart and mind with prayer and scripture. He is writing in his journal and as the procedure draws closer you can visually see his anxiety increase. I am realizing how much he is like me because he exhibits his anxiety by wanting to create order and peace around him. He begins straightening up the table in front of him and puting things away. As I watched him I remembered a bracelet I had bought him that says FEAR NOT on it so I pulled it out and gave it to him. He put it on looked at it. Then he relaxed and we waited. There is so much waiting!
Procedure complete! CJ slept soundly and I got through another spinal on my feet. I got a little nauseous this time when CJ did not fall asleep as peacefully as he usually does and the needle didn't go in smoothly at first like it usually does, but I began to pray and focus on God's Sovereignty and was able to relax. I felt a little tense as the procedure began and there was blood when there usually is none, but I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw the first drop of spinal fluid begin to drip clear. Not that I would be able to visually tell if the cancer had spread to his spine and the fluids will still need to be tested, but somehow I feel relief when I see them drip clear. CJ slept for a long time after the procedure and the nurse administered the rest of his chemo meds while he was sleeping. We have grown close to her over the past few months and I know she genuinely cares for my son and my family. We also share the same faith and I was able to share with her a time God used her to speak to me to relieve my fears about the chemotherapy medications. A couple of months back, He had prompted her to suddenly say that the medicine CJ was receiving was made from a plant as she was administering the medicine through his port. I couldn't believe she had said it, because it was at a time I was struggling with different alternatives being presented to me from different directions that came down very hard on chemotherapy. It's a long story, but needless to say, she faithfully spoke what God placed in her mind not knowing it was specifically for me and it encouraged me in a tremendous way. In essence, God was saying to me, "I am in complete control whether CJ receives medication through his port in a hospital or homeopathic alternatives administered at home." I really needed to hear that at that time. And today I needed another reminder. I amaze myself at how easily I forget or venture away from a truth He has already established for me. New information comes my way and I suddenly question Him all over again. He did not need to send me that confirmation the first time through our nurse's comment that day, but He is kind and compassionate to our needs and struggles. He knows our fears and questions and when we surrender them to Him, He will faithfully answer even when we are hardheaded and need to hear it again, like I did today.

The doctor was concerned about CJ's reaction to the shots last week and decided to remove that medication from CJ's treatment plan. He explained that it will be replaced with a new medicine that is from Europe. It is not available here in the United States because it is not approved by the USFDA. It takes time and coordination to get it here so the doctor asked me to read, review and sign some paperwork to get the ball rolling in order for CJ receive it. As I read over the forms, God once again spoke to me about fears and concerns that began weighing in on me this past week. The paperwork explained that the medicine CJ previously received that he reacted to was made from the E-Coli bacteria. The new medicine he will be receiving is made from a plant source. I read it and realized God knew I was struggling again and that I needed that reminder that He was in control and I did not need to allow fear to creep in. So maybe CJ's mild reaction is a good thing. Maybe it was even a God thing! It gets CJ off a drug made from bacteria to one made from a plant. It relieved my fears and questions that began to creep in. I am so thankful He is willing to answer our questions and calms our fears.

Questions.....That is something I seem to have a lot of lately. I am struggling with all I am seeing around me at the hospital. Struggling to understand. It is not even what is happening to our family. I can accept what is happening to us and make sense of it all. It is what we see happening all around us in a broader picture because of this experience. God is reversing so much of my thinking and understanding that my head is spinning a little. What I thought was rich, is now poor. What I thought was blessed, is now cursed. What I thought was prosperity, is now poverty. What I thought was life, is now death. What I thought was faith, I don't know. So there are questions.....lots of them. At first I was ashamed to have them. Ashamed of the internal struggle to make sense of so much. I felt I should be able to stand on my faith alone and have no questions. Don't ask why, just keep moving forward. Don't think about it. But then I realized He can handle my questions. He is the Truth after all. And just as He calmed my fears and answered my questions about the chemo meds I know He can provide the answers I am seeking and calm my confused mind. Yet, I know some things are "beyond all questions" and this is where I must rely on His word, His truth, and His promises. Oh, that I would find rest in what I know, that I know, that I know.

In closing (and to end my babbling) today is day 32 of a 57 day phase. I can not wait for this phase to be over. With each increased dose I feel like we are on pins and needles in a wait and see pattern as far as reactions go. CJ has fared amazing well so far and I can not thank you enough for your prayers. I believe they are making all the difference in the world. I believe God has been especially moved by the prayers of your children. The stories you have shared with Chris and I about the faithful prayers of your little children amaze us. One little girl who is only 3 never fails to remember to pray for "JJ" Don't you just love that? She tells her mommy, "and JJ, we pray for JJ". I can sense God's smile as she prays for a boy whose name she can not pronounce, she never even met and yet she never forgets!

In regards to prayer for CJ; if I can be so bold as to ask you to "kick it up a notch" as we close out this phase. Please pray for him to remain side effect free. Pray for his body and organs to tolerate these increased doses. He started this phase at 110mg and is up to 275mg. He will end out with 300mg if his body can tolerate it. Pray for his strength and sustainment. Thank you is not adequate, but all I can humbly say. I will repay you on my knees. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ. Dawn George; on behalf of the George Family.

"Beyond all question, the mystery of godliness is great: He appeared in a body, was vindicated by the Spirit, was seen by angels, was preached among the nations, was believed on in the world, was taken up in glory."
1 Timothy 3:16


Anonymous said...


Your words are quite the opposite of "babbling". They are truly deep and inspiring thoughts and questions many of us ponder. We are learning so much through you. I have never learned so much about our Heavenly Father then I have through this whole experience. I can not wait to learn more. I have soooooo many questions, too. I do know that He will answer them, if we just keep listening and stay focused on Him. Let's stay on this journey with the same goal and purpose, Our Heavenly Father. Getting to know and serve Him, no matter what. What He wants to reveal to us here on earth He will, some things He may wait to explain face to face. Once again, I can not thank you enough for taking the time to do this blog and open your heart for all to see. I only have the two boys and still struggle to find time, I am not homeschooling, and do not clean my own house. What you are doing is beyond sacrificial. I admire you for that. You are a true example of a person that seeks and lives to glorfy God, especially when it is not easy. I feel that is what truly impacts me about you. You obey and honor Him even when it is not easy. I struggle in this area. But, just remember your rewards will be so precious. I hope to grow and become more like you, where I "bleed" scriptures and my vision is so focused on Him and Him alone.

I love you, sis.


Dear Father, I pour my heart out to you for our precious CJ. He is truly a gift to us. You have shown us so much and worked so many miracles already. You have turned so much bad into good. So many hurtful times into sweet scents of forgiveness for me. You have restored the lost/fallen. You have brought a family that was once broken back together and replaced it's toxcitity and turmoil into God centered relationships. I boldly ask that you continue to heal our CJ and continue to work your miracles that we may not of gotten to see with out this whole experience. I thank You Lord, and Dawn and Chris's obedience in obeying you and all who are seeking you. Let your Glory continue to reign on us. Help me become a faithful servant like my sister Dawn. Help me as I try to grow closer to you, to block the devil and all of his attempts to sabatoge any ground I grow closer to you in. I love you, Lord.


Anonymous said...


God bless you always, and be with you and CJ. I have been looking forward to read an update for weeks, I thank you for posting it. I need to thank you again, these past weeks have been memorable in my life, I feel closer to God each day, I am praying more, and asking my Lord in my knees to restore me, to change me, to use me, just as your sister Jacks, me in my 26 years old, I look up to you so much, I want to be a faithful servant like you, that people can see in me what I see in you, God’s light and truth. I will continue to pray for our CJ, for you and the rest of your family, I faithfully believe that he is going to complete his work in CJ, Dawn keep strong in what you know, keep strong, God is with you, God is with CJ all the time. Just as you have questions, I have so many now, as I grow in Christ and his wisdom, I realized I need to keep praying for my restoration, for in his mercy he can change me completely, for him to live in me, for me to walk with him. God found me Dawn, I was lost, CJ showed me how much God loves me, he has taught me the biggest lesson of love, I repay CJ with my prayers, in my knees, wearing his bracelet most of the times, I can say I am a better person today, I am more like Jesus Christ. Thank you GOD for CJ, for Dawn, for the George family! Again I cant wait to get to meet you and your family, specially our special CJ in person, and give you all a big hug!

Love you all, my heart, my prayers are with you always.

Your sister in Christ


Break the Mold said...


I am humbled at your words and thankful that God would use me in any way to enocurage you to draw near to Him. It only shows His miraculous power because I am the least likely candidate to bring glory to God. It is all Him.
As it says on the sidebar of the blog .
1 Timothy 1:15-17
"Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -of whom I am the worst. But for that reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display His unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on Him and receive eternal life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the ONLY God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen."

Paul wrote that before he knew that I would become the "worst of sinners". That verse is my life verse and really adequately expresses what I am trying to say.
Any good you see in me through this blog is wholeheartedly Jesus Christ. NOTHING good dwells in me but Him. Nothing! I have proved it over and over. But He has proved over and over that he is the redeemer of the lost, lowly pitiful and weak.

I assure you and everyone who reads this there has never been a more broken, self destructive, pit dweller than me. My bible mentor (whom I also have never met) thinks she was the deepest pit dweller there ever was. I don't have the heart to tell her that was not the bottom of the pit she was standing on but my head.

So even though I am humbled by your words I would point you to the power of Christ at work. If He is willing to use my messed up and broken life in any way, He can use anything to bring glory to Himself.

Jackie, as my sister I know you know all of this because you have seen my life up close and personal but I felt the need to share it here.

By His Grace Alone

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your "babbling" . May the Lord continue to give you the strength to do all that He asks of you as a mom,and a wife. Isaiah 40:28-29 Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, The Creator of the end of the earth, Neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength. May our sweet Lord continue to heal CJ. Loida

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your "babbling" . May the Lord continue to give you the strength to do all that He asks of you as a mom,and a wife. Isaiah 40:28-29 Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, The Creator of the end of the earth, Neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength. May our sweet Lord continue to heal CJ. Loida

Elena Rodriguez said...

Thank you for the update.. I often hold back from asking questions, but frequently read your blogs to know more about God's glory in CJ's and your life. Thank you for this blog.. I needed to hear your words tonight, to set the perspective and as I longed for God's loving arms to hold us close to Him.. We will not cease to pray for CJ and your family.
Love, Elena

Anonymous said...

CJ, please forgive your Poppa for a few moments while I babble to your Mom and aunts-Jackie and Tammi.
Talk about babbling . . .Every time I read the blog ,Dawnie, and every time I read the comments, Jackie and Tammi, I am 'kvelling' to have such loving and dedicated daughters. You make my heart overflow with pirde...not for me, but to know that you are all as one in and everlasting and loving G-d, Yeshua.

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ (Yeshua), he is a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come!" II Corinthians

All I can say as your earthly father is... WOW!!! How blessed am I to have you three girls! I love you so very much.

Now back to you CJ.
You already know that as your grandparents . . . your Grandma Paula, Poppa John and Grandma Colleen, and myself wish that we could take this cancer from you and even transfer it into our own blood and bones .. .but it doesn't work that way. So each and every minute of each and every day we pray for you and we love you. You, CJ, are our strength. We are awed by your courage and your dedication to beat this thing. You are our light and you make our spirits humble as we watch you use your gifts to turn hearts and minds toward Jesus (Yeshua).
You are my heart - and I love you with every beat of it! Poppa Jerry

Anonymous said...

Dawn and Chris,
I often tell my Biology class that humans would have died out a long time ago had God not provided plants, bacteria, fungi and animal life to cure our diseases. I just looked up the origin of methotrexate, CJ's chemo drug, and found out that the discoverer of this drug was Dr Subbarow, a poor man from India who became a doctor, travelled to the US, trained at Harvard but was denied a professorship there so worked for a lab the rest of his life. He also discovered tetracycline antibiotics which have saved thousands upon thousands of lives since WW II. What is interesting is that his last expressed wish to colleagues before his death was: "If God will spare me another couple of years, may be we can cure another disease." Isn't is wonderful that God gives some the desire and ability to discover cures, and Dr Subbarow's work more than 50 years ago is now putting CJ into remission? Praise the Lord!

We miss you and love you! Give a great big hug from us to CJ, Allie, Brett, and Corey!
Love, Aunt Karen and Uncle Terry

Anonymous said...


Yes, nothing good dwells in me either except for HIM. I thank you for that truth. It helps me really understand things a lot better!



Tammi said...

Dear Dawn, I promise to pray longer and harder on my face for CJ. I know that Jerri will see me and see Travis and she will lay down on her face, too. She won't know what she is doing, but God will and he'll hear her, too.

Dear CJ, we love you and we miss you and I want you to know that every single night when I tuck Jerri in bed in her crib she points at your picture (which is the one of you and her faces side by side and I blew it up as big as a sheet of paper and taped it to the bars of her crib) and she says, "Dear Jesusss, CJ no more sickie, pweese, Aye-Man." without fail, and I don't even have to tell her to. Also, Travis prays for you at the dinner table and says something different everynight to help God make you better.

Dear Jackie, so, so much goodness dwells within you that it overflows out of your poors and it always has. I love you.

Dear Dad, I miss you a lot. I know that you would take CJ's cancer from him in a second and that you would have taken a lot of trials and other hardships from me and my sisters in the past and present if you could have as well.

Dear Mom, I love you everyday for all of your encouragement and how you listen to me and agree with me.

Tammi Jo.

faith2pray said...

George Family,

Thank you for keeping us all updated! All I can think of right now are these lyrics:

Oh what a glorious mystery you are
Though we only see in part
You've completely won our hearts
Oh what a glorious mystery you are

I hope that reminds you of his faithfulness & fills you with hope as we wait for the many mysteries to be day soon!

All our love & prayers,
Marilena, Lukas & Raquel

Anonymous said...

Dawnie....I see little CJ's smile and wonder how someone so young can be so strong. God blesses him in ways we may never understand!
Love you all very much,
Aunt Penny

Unknown said...

The picture of CJ on the blog always grabs me first. This one is so beautiful. That smile could launch a thousand ships!

Dawn, after being with you once during the spinal I understand what you mean about getting through it on your feet. I'm glad he was able to get the port chemmo while he was still asleep from the procedure. I'm grateful for the caring nurses that take the time to let you know about the different medications and ease your anxieties as well as what they do for the kids. These are nurses I think about often. Like Lotsy, I think about her. They are some really special people.

Dawn, we know that you don't take any personal credit for the job you are doing and we know that it is God working in you. Like Pastor Al said during his powerful sermon, "I was seriously sinning just 15 minutes before I stood here to give this sermon today" but when he spoke Jesus was glorified and used him as the vessel to get the message out and he was on fire. That is what he is doing with you because you understand that and are faithful and let him use you. You are not looking for anything except for people to look up and we know that.

Having said all that, I like your Dad, am proud of you and Chris. I am proud of Jackie and Tammi. Tammi even gave Jackie an acknowlegement of her love for her. I think CJ's illness and watching how God is working in all of us has finally healed wounds in this family that none of us could do before. Amazing, isn't it? So, keep it up girls. Do what is right. Love each other. Pray hard for CJ and all of us.

Lots of love,


Anonymous said...

I love you too, T.


Anonymous said...

Hi, Dawn. God is so amazing and awesome. He is healing CJ physically, but He is also healing wounds in your family. There is so much hurt in this world, and God loves us so much, he reaches out and He heals!!! It gives me hope for healing in our own family. There is that word again, "hope".
I continue to pray for healing for CJ and in your family....and I pray for healing in mine too! ;-)

Anonymous said...

So much love pouring out from this wonderful family. I photographed!!!! I love all of you and am very happy for each and everyone of you!!! CJ stay strong you are a brave little man I love you xoxoxo Pam

Anonymous said...

I love and want to trust God with all my heart. How do I surrender all...I mean Him? I am afraid.
I know all of you are dealing with this and you are learning to let go and trust Him. it is just hard for me to do it. thank you for being transparent with your lives.

Anonymous said...

To Anonymous:

I don’t know you, but I feel the need to tell you that yes and yes! I perfectly know what you mean by being afraid, but don’t be, God loves you, God cares for you, God says: my son don’t be afraid I will be with you, and I will give you the peace that only I can give you. Praise the Lord that even that nothing dwells good in us, him and only him restores us by his grace and power, and growth in us to glorify his name with the lost and the fallen, Thank you Lord for loving me, I love you so much too, I surround everything I have, and everything I am to your will. There is not need to be afraid, how can we be afraid of someone whom loves us more than anything? May the Lord grant you the peace you need and be with you always, God bless you all.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

John 14:27

But those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:31

In Christ,


Anonymous said...

Psalm 16:11

"You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore."


Unknown said...


It is amazing how you inspire people. There is a young lady that works at the Hard Rock as a dealer and a floor manager and last week when I was there in a tournament I mentioned you to her briefly and what was going on with you. She hadn't heard about you before and all of a sudden in the next 15 minutes I saw her standing there, praying and she even had her hands open like your Mom does in church. This lasted for about an hour. A couple days later I saw her and she said she cried and prayed all the way home. She didn't know why. You affected her that much. She went home and wrote a song for you, about you. She writes songs. She went out and bought you a journal. She told me she wants to meet you and share her story about that it took her 7 years to have a baby. She says she doesn't know what cancer is like but she knows what its like for your body to not be well but she never gave up and her prayer circle never gave up and now she has twin Miracles!!! Well I'm sure I'll get her song for you pretty soon or she'll even post it here but I'm grateful that a stranger could put that much heart, prayer and love into my grandson that she never met me. She doesn't even know me that well. God has some really faithful servants out there and a big thank you from me to Kristi.

Grandma Paula

Anonymous said...

CJ is very truth what you grandma Paula said, you inspire people, you inspired me, I don’t know you personally, and I think about you, and pray everyday for you, you are an special God’s child, I am so proud that I am able to see a 9 year old child with so much love and faith in our Lord, It is beautiful to see how everyone reacts once they hear about you, it amazing the work God is doing in all of us. I Praise the Lord that he is using you CJ to bring his people together.I thank God everyday for you and your family. God bless you and be with you always.

In Christ,


Break the Mold said...

Thank you for sharing this with us! We are blown away and completely moved by these stories and testimonies. They encuorage us to see CJ's cancer from a different perspective than just our selfish one. We are able to get a glimpse of God at work in a much larger realm than just our home and what is taking place here. These testimonies help us to make sense of all the suffering we see at the hospital and in our home. They help us to keep from asking why? and instead say, "Yes and Amen!"
Your story reminded me of an elder gentleman I shared with at a local grocery store. I will not mention any names as to not get anyone in trouble. He was extremely helpful to me and then saw the bracelet so I shared a bit. He completely broke down. He could not hold back the tears. He did not know me or CJ or anyone in my family. He kept saying "I am so sorry, I don't mean to do this, I am so sorry." I felt so bad. He was so afraid he would lose his job if they saw him sobbing to a customer. He said, please don't tell my bosses. He kept saying he was sorry but that he had grandchildren that age. He was so moved over a child he did not know. I told him to not be sorry because his tears and reaction were a blessing and comfort to me from the Lord.
So I completely understand what it is like when you see someone have such a powerful reaction.
Thank you for sharing this with us and please keep sharing CJ's story. You never know when God will use it to draw someone close to Himself.
Dawn and Chris

Hebrews 10:21-23
"and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful"

Break the Mold said...

I have been praying for you since I read your post and praying about my response to it.

I would like to encourage you that surrender is not only a one time thing but also a daily thing. It is not an either/or but both/and.

Yes, at one point in time we will respond to Gods call and surrender our lives to Jesus Christ. In so doing we become adopted into Gods family, saved, Christians, justified, born again, sealed, all of the above, whatever you choose to call it.

But surrender is also a daily thing. Jesus said, "take up your cross daily and follow me". Notice the word "daily". It is often left out of this well known and heavily quoted verse. We are faced with choices everday and we must choose whether we will surrender. When I wake up I have a choice to make. Will I just start my day and forge ahead on my own or will I surrender that day to Him by seeking Him through His word and prayer.
When I am frustrated with the kids I make a choice of whether I will surrender to His will and obey His word and discipline and correct them in love or will I react harshly and handle it selfishly, my way.
When I disagree with my husband I have to make a choice of whether I will disobey the Lord and disrespect my husband or will I surrender to God's plan for my life by living submitted to my husbands leadership.
When a friend or co-worker hurts me I have to choose whether I will surrender to God's word and love and forgive them or will I return evil for evil and insult for insult.
When I get a paycheck I have a choice to make, will I surrender what is His in the first place and steward His provision faithfully, or will I spend it carelessly.

I could go on and on with a multitude of examples but I think you get the point.

Now if this sounds hard I would enoucage you that if we are in Christ and have taken that first step of surrendering our lives to Him that we have been given everything we need to accomplish this.

Titus 2:11-15 says
"For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, while we wait for the blessed hope—the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, who gave himself for us to redeem us from all wickedness and to purify for himself a people that are his very own, eager to do what is good."

He has provided the ability to surrender. He deposited his Spirit in us upon salvation and the Spirit of God supplies us with the grace we need to live these type of surrendered lives. If we try to do it in our own strength we will always eventually fail and we miss the point. He invites us and provides us the strength through His Spirit. Just like He provided it to Christ in the garden before the crucifixtion. Jesus sought release from what was to come but surrendered to what the Father had ordained for Him. Whenever I have trouble surrendering anything to the Lord, I think of Jesus in the garden praying earnestly. Nothing I can surrender can possibly compare to what he surrendered to on my behalf. So we surrender with Him, when we say with Him, "Not my will but Yours be done."

I would have to add a testimony that I have lived both ways. And I have found the opposite of what one expects to find in full surrender to anything. I discovered full freedom through surrender and a peace that surpasses all understanding not to mention the blessings.
When I surrendered my life, I received restoration. When I surrendered my marriage I received a husband that loves the Lord and leads me faithfully! When I surrrendered my finances I received freedom from the bondage of dept and blessings beyond compare. When I surrendered my children, I received freedom from guilt and fear and the ability to truly love. When I surrendered my past I received redemption! The list goes on and on....
So, annonymous, don't hold back. If you feel the Lord calling you to surrender a certain area...give it to Him. Who better to hand it over to than a God who not only creates us, forgives us, saves us, redeems us but also loves us and enters into relationship with us.

I once heard something that really enocuraged me....

"Nothing you are holding on to is worth what you are giving up." Beth Moore

That defines surrender! When we hold onto those things we think we can not surrender; our marriage, our children, our relationships, our finances, our friendships, .....we cheat ourselves out of the greater blessings held for us. Test Him in this, He invites you to. He is faithful and will multiply anything you can possibly surrender to Him.

Malachi 3:10
"...test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it."

I hope that helps you annonymous. I will be praying for your surrender!
A surrendered servant,

Anonymous said...


Thank you for those deep words, once again you have speak to my heart needs, thank you, I too have been surrender everything to God, and when I say everything I mean everything, trusting him and only him in his will, Thank you from the bottom of my heart, you not only spoke to Anonymous but encouraged me to keep surrounding everything to him. Thank you mentor, and thank God because you pray and answers you!

P.S we (my family and I) will continue praying for CJ’s complete heal.

In Christ, another surrender servant,


Anonymous said...


Your words are very true and encouraging. I needed to hear them. I needed to be reminded on what it is to truly surrender. Looking back, I recently have applied the act of surrendering in areas of my life instead of handling things with my flesh- reaction, which is to yell and blow up and insist my side be known and accepted! And I can say, He has truly given me peace as an outcome instead of turmoil and anger. It really truly is about a constant surrender, especially when I am "in the moment". I have a decision to make, do I follow Him or my flesh? When I follow Him the "problem" resolves in a much more honoring manner and I am thankful. And I usually end up seeing a much clearer picture and realize my way was not the right way. When we walk in His word and His way to lead instead of our own, He truly does bring peace.



I am thankful for everything you are doing in our lives. I thank you for the valuable lessons I have learned about you and your ways. I pray that I do not forget them and continue to apply them to my life. Thank you for never leaving or forsaking me. Please continue to heal CJ and shine your Glory and Love on us along the way.


Anonymous said...


I was just scrolling through the blog and looking at pictures of you. I would click on the pictures and they would get really big. You truly are a handsome boy! Your smile is contagious. I just wanted to tell you that I love you and I am thinking about you. I miss you. I can't come see you until Kevin and Kyle are 100% healthy. Kevin is just getting over a fever and a cough. And Kyle had a fever and bad stomach. We think Kyle is teething, but I want to be safe. I just want you to know I AM thinking about you and Allie, Brett, and Corey, and would love to see you guys, but, your health and strengh is most important. Well I love you.

Aunt Jackie